A couple things - first, hello again after a long absence! I am mainly on PEERTrainer these days, but I'll be checking in here occasionally too.

Second, I've finally started actually losing weight! First I gained some - was up in the mid 180s and not feeling well. But since starting to log all my food and measure my weight every day, I've gotten down about 10lbs - lowest was 171.0 a couple days ago. I am excited about this success!! :)

Third, I am quite discouraged though in the past few days - I was sick 3 times in as many months, and when I am sick, all bets are off! It is my Achilles heel of weight loss. When I feel like crap, I just don't care about anything except trying to feel better NOW. (Result: I eat whatever crap my body craves, to soothe myself and also in the hopes that indulging might heal me faster!)

So despite the recent BIG successes (10lbs in about a month is amazing for me!!) - all I can see is how AWFUL I feel, and how I will do anything to make the AWFUL go away! How do I handle this??

The only thing I can think of, is to realize that for now, I will feel like sh*t no matter what!!! Comfort foods don't help. So at least I can eat healthy foods while feeling like sh*t - that way the damage might not be so bad, once the illness finally passes.