Sunday, February 10, 2013
Normally on my birthday I reflect on my life a bit. Today, I like the person Iíve become. I am comfortable in my own skin, and I am not afraid of showing who I am, flaws and all. I realized not everybody is so fortunate. It took a lot of hard work and fearless self-examination to become the woman I am. I had to look at selfish things I did and the angry words Iíve spoken. I had to ask myself ďIs it worth it? Is my dignity worth the price I pay when I am selfish, unkind or resentful?Ē Of course the answer is ďNo.Ē
Coming to that conclusion wasnít easy, it didnít happen overnight, and I certainly didnít do it alone. No, it was a long and winding road, and along the way I had many people to guide me. Sometimes they were guides by choice and sometimes by circumstance.
What I know today, is that words have power; words have the power to heal, or the power to cause pain. I think of all the people who have who have said kinds words to me at the lowest points of my life, not knowing that their words gave me strength until I could stand on my own again. So yes, words have power, and today I choose my wisely, for the most part. Today I am accountable for my words and my actions.
Above all, the thing that has changed me the most, is love. The love of people who cared enough to spend hours with me sorting thru the circumstance of my life. The people who dared to speak the truth to me and tell me what they really saw; sometimes it was something dark and scary, and other times it was something beautiful and freeing. All of it was enlightening; all of it was priceless. It is because of the love hose of those people I had the courage to become who I am today!