Hanging in there
Saturday, February 09, 2013
I'm experiencing a lot of upheaval in my life right now. My job duties changed at work, taking most of the things I love most about my job and giving them to others, while giving me a major, never-ending task in which everyone relies on me and I have little training, no experience, and less than half the time I'm supposed to have allocated to get the work done. No pressure though!
On top of that the coal company finally bought my childhood home, and my mother has decided to move 12 hours away from me to live near my brother. The whole business is sad and stressful and heartbreaking, in a way, while at the same time being right and a relief.
To say I'm stressed and conflicted is a bit of an understatement.
On the bright side, I'm still FLYing with the flylady - my house is mostly clean (not just neat, but CLEAN), as is my office. I'm much more organized. I think FLYing has helped with my weight, too - I gained a little over Christmas, but lost it again right away once things got back to normal. This week has been one of the busiest weeks of the year for me, workwise, so I've eaten out more than usual and the house is a bit of a tip right now (comparatively - it's nothing to what it would have been before I started FLYing), but I have two days off (in a row!) to get back on track.
I won't go into everything I've been going through (mostly work stuff), but my weight has mostly stayed the same (I'm hovering around 195 - sometimes a few pounds below, sometimes above). My sister's wedding is the first of May. I'd like to be down a few pounds, and decided now that I've cleared a few things off of my plate (I know it doesn't sound like it, but I have! Things are better this week than last) that it might be a good time to start focusing on that.
Do you think 15 lbs - to go from 195-ish to 180-ish - is too much to expect between now and May 4? It would be about 5 lbs/month for February, March and April. I need to start exercising, and clean up my diet - I've mostly done well with not eating out very often, but I need to rein in portion sizes I think. Giving up sugar would be a huge help - I've done it in the past and it makes me feel AMAZING - but I don't know if I'm up for it right now. It's no help that I'm such a dam' fine cook and baker! lol
Anyway, wish me luck, and I'll try to check back in soon - I'm going to weigh in tomorrow morning.
Member Comments About This Blog Post
I think 15 pounds is completely do-able. I hope work gets better for you!
1628 days ago
Thanks for posting! I've been away from Sparkpeople for a while too. I have a love/hate relationship with it. The resources and relationships with other people are great, but I just really don't feel that tracking every bit of food that goes into my mouth is a sensible solution for me. Also, I don't want to fixate on every single pound. My weight, on occasion, has changed by 7-8 lbs over the course of a single DAY, so I don't think that worrying over whether or not I have gained or lost a few ounces is healthy!
I think having a binge every once in a while should be OK, if a person is taking care of themselves the way they should be all of the rest of the time. I've been paying attention and trying to identify WHY I'm eating. I've been really stressed lately, and have said out loud to myself, "I am NOT hungry right now. I'm eating this because I'm unhappy and think it will make me feel better. I know that is the reason." I'm hoping that doing that will help in some way. Identifying actual hunger has been a problem for me for a long time - I was one of those girls who never had a weight problem, until I started dieting myself fat.
Anyway, this is turning into another blog post in itself, so I'll stop. I friended you - hope that's OK - and I'll check in on your site soon. Have a great day!
1628 days ago
Thx for the share. I haven't been on SP In a while....got tired of hearing about the marathon and triathlon training and things that were more life blog and never mentioned food, nutrition, etc.....our SP commonality. I will have to look into flylady and am so happy it has helped you. I eat pretty healthy but need to start watching portions again. I used to measure everything out, put it into containers for the cabinet or the fridge. That worked so well. Whenever I went to the doctors, their scale would have me at 8 lbs more than my scale. So, i bought a new one. ....my new digital scale tells me the truth :). Personally, I think five pounds a month is totally doable. You can do that. buy a fabulous dress! For me, I need to eat more salads, which I love, make my own dressings, eat only one piece of bread a day and fruit as my sugar (usually smoothies that I make). Beans, cooked veggies or fish in my salads. Absolutely no junk food in the house, car or office. No processed foods. I feel great when i eat like this and take a one mile walk every night with my hubby. That has been my eating green diet for a few months now, due to health reasons. I have lost weight and can fit into my skinny jeans. Do I cheat? Oh yeah. Several days ago, I felt like deserved to eat junk because my blood pressure was not going down and I have to remain on meds. It is nor dangerously high...but I don't want it higher. I was reading a fiction book that was centered at a local donut shop....and they described these yummy donuts throughout the entire book. So, I was at the library...ironically... And we're selling candy bars...and....I HAD to but two. Ate one in the car, not even good. Then I needed coffee and bought a half hot chocolate and half coffee ...with a donut. That set off a donut craving, which I dont really like...and the next day I went shopping and ate two donuts in my car! I give myself permission to eat all of that...and to remember it was very impulsive ...and I didn't even really enjoy or taste them. Gobble, gobble. Thank you again for sharing.... I will post my new scale weight and lose with you.
1628 days ago
You are such a sweetie-pie! Thanks for the words of encouragement - I've felt completely trampled lately and it really helps!
1629 days ago
I am so happy to see you back at it. I had started to worry a little, but figured you'd return when the time was right for you. Sounds like you're in a prime mental space to change a few things up - may as well while life is changing it for you, right?
You can totally hit 5 pounds per month. I have faith in you.
1629 days ago
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