Saturday, February 09, 2013
My depression has reared his ugly head again. I am on 2 different meds and I am thinking it is time to go and see the doctor. I would like to change doctors, I have seen this one for almost 30 years and he isn't one to call you out on things. I would like to go to a doctor who puts you on the spot. It's funny because when we first started with Hap the doctor I was given was like the one I think I need now. I changed because he told me I was overweight and needed to lose weight. I have a lot of medical issues..high blood pressure for over 30 years, overweight and now very obese for over 30 years, osteoarthritis, osteoporisis, depression for over 4 years, MS diagnosed 15 years ago, type 2 diabetes diagnosed 3 years ago, I have had my shoulder and knee replaced because of severe arthritis and need to have the other knee done. I stay in my house and sit most of the day, even though I pay for planet fitness every month. I eat even when I am not hungry. I am just a mess. I have been married for over 37 years but we should of divorced years ago, many years ago. We are 2 people living in one house. My hubby always makes fun of my weight telling me he knows I weigh over 300 pounds. I weigh 233. He drank up until right before he retried which is only 10 years ago and just gets nastier as days go by. He only quit drinking because his doctor told him he would never see social security or his pension if he kept drinking, he has type 2 diabetes too. I have no money of my own and I am just too old to even think about a divorce but I need to get better for me. I am sorry for going on and on about me.