Saturday, February 09, 2013
The past 12 months have been the most difficult that I have faced in recent memory.
-I was involuntarily separated from the Navy after 10 years.
-I packed up my life in Virginia and shipped it all down to Florida.
-My new job is nowhere near what I want it to be and my family and I are struggling everyday.
-I have been in an out of depression.
-My weight has increased and my overall health has decreased.
-My wife and I have been struggling with one another, as well as with ourselves.
I am full of excuses. Most of them are valid and most people would be adversely affected by the events that I have experienced over the past year. It has been tough.
Last night, I took my new "before" pictures for Spark. I compared them to where I was when I stopped sparking 2 years ago. And I cried. I was ashamed and embarrassed.
I know that I need to get myself back on the right path. I have known that for quite some time. I know that the Spark works. I know that eating better works. I know that exercise works. I have the proof in the pictures.
I have posted several blogs over the past 2 years, stating my desire to get healthy and get in shape. And each time, it never got past the blog part. Sure, I ran a few times, I ate a salad or two. But, something "bad" would happen in my life and I would fall back into the hole that I was in.
Not anymore. I am determined to break this cycle. I am back near my heaviest weight ever and I don't want to do it anymore. I look and feel miserable.
Stand back...I'm re-igniting my Spark!