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Reigniting My Spark

Saturday, February 09, 2013

The past 12 months have been the most difficult that I have faced in recent memory.

-I was involuntarily separated from the Navy after 10 years.

-I packed up my life in Virginia and shipped it all down to Florida.

-My new job is nowhere near what I want it to be and my family and I are struggling everyday.

-I have been in an out of depression.

-My weight has increased and my overall health has decreased.

-My wife and I have been struggling with one another, as well as with ourselves.

I am full of excuses. Most of them are valid and most people would be adversely affected by the events that I have experienced over the past year. It has been tough.

Last night, I took my new "before" pictures for Spark. I compared them to where I was when I stopped sparking 2 years ago. And I cried. I was ashamed and embarrassed.

I know that I need to get myself back on the right path. I have known that for quite some time. I know that the Spark works. I know that eating better works. I know that exercise works. I have the proof in the pictures.

I have posted several blogs over the past 2 years, stating my desire to get healthy and get in shape. And each time, it never got past the blog part. Sure, I ran a few times, I ate a salad or two. But, something "bad" would happen in my life and I would fall back into the hole that I was in.

Not anymore. I am determined to break this cycle. I am back near my heaviest weight ever and I don't want to do it anymore. I look and feel miserable.

Stand back...I'm re-igniting my Spark!
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  • -AIRYN-
    Best of luck to you. You can do it. I've been there but thankfully I've had my now husband to support me and help pick me up. If there is anything any of us can do, let us know. We are here to support you in your endeavors to get healthy physically, but mentally and emotionally also.

    Best of luck! We are thinking of you!
    1729 days ago
    Neil, I have been there. I am there, right now. Change is hard, but do what works for you. Make small steps for yourself. Despite all the baggage in my life, I have continued to exercise. It helps with my stress. I squeeze it in where I can.

    Do what you can and view it as time for you. I can't guarantee that the stress will end, but I can guarantee if you start to make small changes to make yourself healtheir, you will feel better and will be able to handle the stress better.

    We are here for you!
    1739 days ago
  • AGOALOF150
    You can do it!! Sorry to hear about your recent hard times.
    1740 days ago
    you can do this....Chin up and hit a new high!
    1740 days ago
    When we feel down, there is only one way to go emoticon


    1740 days ago
    emoticon Been there and done that. This grandma's prayers are that you can have success and ease in your life.
    That was then and this is now. Go Neil! emoticon
    1740 days ago
    Neil, I have thought of you so many times and wondered what happened to you. Please know that not only myself, but all other Sparkers understand what you are going through and are here to support you in any way that we can. emoticon
    1741 days ago
    Good luck. Sounds like some difficult times have gotten the better of your but you are ready to pull at that inner strength to move forward. emoticon
    1741 days ago
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