Saturday, February 09, 2013
The last few weeks have been really hectic here. I wake at six grab a shower jump in the car and take the kids to school which takes about an hour both ways then home to get mom dressed , then off to the hospital, then back home by 2 to go pick up kids home by 4 when I clean the house , help with homework, then back to school for cheer practice, or ballgames, then back home. This isnt even mentioning paying bills,, doing the yard work, washing, ironin, going to the market, getting ready for the pagents, or sitting down just to rest. I am grabbing food wherever the kids or mom decides to go and I am so stressed I just grab whatever usually without even thinking or looking at the menu which is basically burgers fries oir hotdogs, chicken nuggets and I know the places have better choices but its easier to just order what I know. Then its taking time to exercise and I mean really exercise walking or something . Im not at the point of giving up just yet I just need some better time management and more control over my habits.
Im doing this all alone so its harder everyone gets sick of me saying oh I cant have this or that they say we are sick of hearing about that so I just hush and order whatever they have.
I need a better plan I just dont know what its gonna be.
I keep telling myself never give up you will make it I talk to myself all the time trying to keep my old self away from my new self lol they are beginning to collide I have to stay strong and figure this out for myself and see whats best for me but its hard