Epiphany time

Saturday, February 09, 2013

Well, I know I've been a part of this website for a long time, but I've been such a slacker, it's not even funny.
Yesterday I went to school (I'm a full time college student) and I felt HUGE. I even said to a girl in my class "I know I'm a big girl, but you ever have one of those days where you just feel larger than normal?" Yeah yesterday was one of those days.
I woke up this morning and went downstairs, my husband went out to McDonalds to get breakfast because we were (and I quote) "lucky enough to wake up before 10:30, so we could get breakfast sandwiches from there". I ate my two bacon egg and cheese biscuits and drank my cherry coke, and I sat in my chair in front of the television.
And felt fat.
Oh so very fat.
I was messing around online and decided to look up a gym near my house. I then decided Future Fitness wasn't good enough so I looked up LA Fitness. And went through that website for a good hour before I felt like crying. I needed to lose weight. Then I remembered SparkPeople and how horrible I was for not logging on.
I logged on and saw my weight that I logged back in July 2012. 317 pounds. So for laughs and giggles I weighed myself, to see how much of a difference there was.
As of today, Feb. 9, 2013 I weigh 341 pounds. All I want to do is cry because I gained back all that weight that I had lost a year and a half ago! So I looked at my husband who was eating Thin Mint girl scout cookies, and I told him to go weigh himself.
296 pounds. He has NEVER weighed that much before in his entire life. Now, he used to smoke, and in August of 2012 he quit. So I knew he would gain a few pounds... but his stomach got bigger, and together we have hit rock bottom. Headaches every day, feeling sluggish, not being able to walk up the stairs without being out of breath.
I think we're done. It's time to change something, and I need to do it asap.
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    You guys are all great, thank you so much for your comments :)
    1833 days ago
    Welcome back! You've made the first step and hardest step. emoticon I look forward to reading about your journey and all of your progress. emoticon
    1834 days ago
  • MARYBETH4884
    Welcome back! Remember small changes over time make a big difference in the long run! Do one thing, add another and before you know you are on your way. If you and you husband do it together it will be easier!
    1836 days ago
    Good for you for having the courage to admit all of that to us. It's hard when you get into a comfort zone with the hubby and then wake up one day and realize that "oh wow, how did I get here?!". I did the same thing (and would have been eating the same breakfast as you).

    Hubs and I have now started eating vegetarian and are dropping pounds really fast. I'm not hungry and I eat more than just a salad. :) Some nights I have to have a spoon of peanut butter just to get my protein, fat and calories in for the end of the day. I am also a full time student and full time worker -so I completely appreciate your struggle. If you want a friend, I'd be more than happy to work at this together with you. Good luck to you hon. We're all rooting for you!

    1837 days ago
    Please do start right now!! You are already a member of this community and we are all out here just waiting to give you love and support. The only wrong thing you could do is not to start today. If nothing else do it for your health. You have already taken the first steps.... you logged on, you admitted its time and here you are so you already have had your first success!! One day, one small step at a time, You can do it!! emoticon
    1837 days ago
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