I recently posted a couple of photos about what I looked like before I started Spark people and how I look now. I did not know I would need to follow up and write a blog about my progress so far when I originally posted those photos. I know I have come far. I know I still have some ways to go. I know every day can be a struggle, some more so than others.
I began my journey more than three years ago. If I was like the Slowest Loser, www.dailyspark.com/blog_
I should have met my goal by now. Instead I have been more like the inconsistent loser, setting some goals, reaching them, rewarding myself, enjoying the rewards, and then, sometimes, moving in the opposite direction- only to have to lose the weight again!
I had many spark friends who have struggled with the same. Some of them are no longer active on SP. I miss them. Life sometimes gets in the way or steers us off course.
We have worked hard to get the weight off, reached a goal or an occasion and then simply stopped using the tools we have learned for success. Why?
Am I a self saboteur? Or am I just human? Do I think I don't deserve to have the healthy life I envision? Do I just get lazy and stop, not wanting to make it a priority anymore. Probably a little of each.
Last BLC round I was on FIRE!! I think I actually was the Biggest Loser, at least I know that for a few rounds to be true.
This round, I am closer to my goal. I am losing weight more slowly. I am having days where all I want to do is eat, sometimes holding off and sometimes not.
I have posted I will make it to my goal weight by the end of this challenge period. Is it reachable? Realistically~ probably not at a healthy rate of weight loss. Am I okay with that? Or am I settling? Or am I more motivated by this and the possibility of actually getting there? Not quite sure as I have mixed emotions. I don't want to settle or "give up" but I do know losing weight, at a slower rate, it is more likely to stay off.
Three and 1/2 weeks into the challenge and I have lost 4.5 lbs. That is more than a pound a week.
If I can continue to lose a pound a week, I will be that much closer to my goal weight. This is realistic and short term goals are better for me, at least I think. They are not as overwhelming and added up, they bring me toward those long terms goals.
And I know I need to do more positive self talk. I need to focus more on my accomplishments and
abilities, and less on the words of self doubt which have been dancing around in my head at times, contributing to the cycle of negativity, bringing me further from my goals.
So check back with me in 8 1/2 weeks.