First Entry of the Year and of my Journey...
Saturday, February 09, 2013
I'm 53 years old, a wife, mom, grandmother, and photographer. I have always had a weight problem but it escalated after the birth of my first child. I'm a yo-yo dieter and have been on Weight Watchers, Nutrisystem and other diets with success. I would reach my goal weight each time only to be on maintenance and start slipping. I would then gain all of my weight back plus more each time. If I tried to return to the weight loss program that was successful, I might knock off 15 to 20 pounds but then I for some reason thought it was ok to start eating my old way again which was mostly snacking all day.
Generally, I don't make New Year's resolutions. I don't usually keep them. I have yo-yo dieted myself into a place where I have three options...
1) Totally retrain my 53 year-old mind to eat healthy food in the correct proportions, lose to goal and maintain for the rest of my life.
2) Lose my weight by force - This to me means lap band surgery or something more drastic such as gastric bypass. I'm 130 pounds over my goal weight at this point.
3) Stay on the road I have been on and continue to gain weight, feel bad. At this time I have no medical issues but I know they are inevitable, take each medical issue as it comes along.
Well,, #3 is NOT by any means an option. If anything, I believe it has scared me into making major mental changes which will affect my eating habits long term. For years I somehow have had it in my mind that if I lose my weight and hit my goal, miraculously I will be able to eat anything I want and in any quantity. Where did I get that idea? Everyone knows that false. This is the part I have to be sure to never let get the best of me again.
So, I'm starting this journey with a different thought this time and possibly blogging could be helpful. We will see...