My life has been a whirl. I've lacked focus on my healthy living - so many things distracting me right now: my Dad's health - 4 surgeries since 12/31/12, and another one still to come; juggling giving and planning care for him along with my daily 180 mile commute; my husband's health, which entails an upcoming surgery and some changes to be made in our house to accommodate his return home, the health issue also creates financial stressors. And somehow, this year, I feel I've just been paralyzed by the cold of winter which creeps into my home and into my bones - it seems so long and cold! I know that I need to take care of myself, but my focus is greatly lacking. I haven't even finalized my 2013 goals.

So many times recently, my family has been faced with decisions and questions. We want to look far into the future and map the plan out for the future like a GPS; but that is not how God is supplying. He is supplying one step at a time. One of our mantras has become a book title, "Just Enough Light For the Step I'm On." It has been a challenge and in all honesty, intensely stressful.

But I realize that my health is important, too; and I need to move forward on this journey. After all, it is just one step at a time.

It is 3:22 am and my brain will not shut off. But tomorrow, I will make at least one healthy choice. I can do that.

I did have a successful 4-day win, and I hoped that would energize, jump start. I need to plan another, and another, and another using turtle steps until I am once again on an upward spiral.

One step at a time.