Saturday, February 09, 2013
I just watched "How to Be Slim" on youtube. It was interesting and informative. I've always been interested in the actual science of weight loss. I guess it gave more reasons as to why I should concentrate on changing my diet and focus even less on appearance. I am already inspired to try healthy recipes. I am pleased with myself because I stayed within calorie range for today, and had 14 cups of water.
I took a break from the gym today, but I took a walk. I'm just feeling more optimistic about this as a whole.
I think about how much weight I actually have left to lose, and it's not unrealistic to think that I could reach my goal weight within this year. If I work really hard, I really can, and that makes me all the more excited to get there. I'm a little nervous about the transition I'll eventually have to make between weight loss and maintenance, but I'll worry about it more when I get there.
Even though I stayed within my calorie range today, a lot of it was processed crap. The only thing I had that had any real nutritional value was the oatmeal and peanut butter I had this morning, and the dried cherries I had for a snack. The rest was a box of pasta roni, and an entire package of idahoan packaged mashed potatoes-both of which I had the entire container to myself. I also had 6 caramel cubes. It's amazing because listing it, it's not a lot of food, but it was really high in calories. In total, I only had about 7 cups of food for the entire day, but it was really calorie-laden, and I did find myself hungry, but I ended up fighting off the hunger, and drinking water instead which kind of helped, but even right now, I could totally eat some of those chips sitting on the counter, or some more caramel candies. I just REALLY. DON'T. WANT. TO. OVEREAT.
My goal for tomorrow is to eat a healthy egg and veggie scramble with a little bit of cheese. I do want to be healthy. I think the hardest part is getting back to eating healthy foods. It's difficult to break away from the addictive junk food, and the fact that it's really much more convenient to boil some water, milk and butter, and toss in a packet rather than cutting, mixing, chopping, and cooking. I guess I'm guilty of being a little lazy in the kitchen.
I did well today, but tomorrow will be better. I have literally 64 pounds to lose until I reach my goal. I can do this.
Yesterday, I exercised on the stationary bike for 30 minutes, but I did 30 second increments of really hard pedaling at max resistance-totaling to 10 minutes out of the 30. It hurt like hell when I got the last 10 seconds of each rep, but I reminded myself that losing weight required getting out of my comfort zone, and I was going to feel really good after I finished-and I did! After, I did 30 minutes on this strider/elliptical thing. It was pretty awesome, and I ended up burning about 900 calories between the two machines. I ended up lifting some weights too.
I think another thing that's making me feel more optimistic is the fact that I know I have an appointment with a counselor, and when I was seeing one before, I was quite successful. That, and the weather has been beautiful.
Another important thing I need to do is just keep taking this one day at a time. I know I'm optimistic about it now, but I know that there have been days when I just don't "feel it", and I know that there will be more days like that to come in spite of the fact that I have so little left to lose. I want to finally be able to say that I've finished something I've started. I haven't been able to say that about many things. I've got this.