Friday, February 08, 2013
The last few days have been very trying for me diet wise. I am tracking but even that isnt putting me back on track with my eating. I have no idea why I want food so badly. I do know Im not hungry when I reach for the food, and I also know nothing satisfies the cravings its like I know I want something but nothing fills the need. I tried water, I tried junk food, I tried healthy food, I tried fruits ( may I add yuck) I tried everything even yogurt and nothing seemed to work. So now Im thinking maybe its not food Im craving but maybe im bored it does seem to be that im craving when Im not busy and the last few days have been spent doing much of nothing.
That being said I have decided to take the weekend to keep busy and see how the eating goes I do know my emotions have set my eating habits in the past so I do beleive this is the problem right now but getting past it is hard.
Before when I would get to this point I would spend two or three days eating or should I say binging then I would give up completely but not this time I decided to blog about it and move forward not back and definately not stopping.
I will not give up this easily and I will not stop this time I have a goal to reach and I will reach it This is only a minor obstacle to overcome but somehow I will overcome it and get myself back on track If I gain I will still keep moving forward, I will continue to track even the bad stuff, I will continue to exercise even when my emotions cry out to stop, I wont let depression, fatigue, boredom, or anything else get to me this time around. I didnt get here overnight and I wont reach my goals overnight so this is just a bump in the road along my journey.
Every journey has a starting point, a time of hardships, a time of renewal, and a time of triumph I have to go through every part to reach the goal.
I was reminded that God never closes a door without opening another one but it may be hell in the hallway Im in the hallway right now but the door to success is just ahead.