While checking out my emails today and I came across a Best of Spark email received a few days ago. So I checked it out and once I got the bottom there was this message that Coach Nicole had written as part of the email that stood out to me:
"SparkPeople's Coach Nicole says:
When you are consistent in your healthy habits, magic is happening in your body and mind, even if the scale isn't moving."
This could not have come at such a better time because for the last 2 days I've been feeling slightly fatigued and I think the mental game I usually play with myself is starting to try and get a hold of me again. I've been going strong for awhile now in all honesty, since the first of the year but I knew in the back of my mind that I'd reach a bump in the road. Though I've lost some weight since the first of the year and also since joining spark last week, I have this way of making myself believe it's not enough. Why? Because I haven't lost anything more of course!! I mean, never mind the fact that I generally have more energy, or that I sleep better, or that I have so much fun trying out new recipes, or that my clothes fit even just the slightest better, or even that I feel less bloated!
Today I went home for lunch, had my salad and my fruit, drank my water, got in a quick 10 minute workout session of lower body strength workouts and then ended up in front of the mirror and started poking at my belly that won't seem to go anywhere. Mind you, I'm a very rational person and I'm often the one that can look at any situation and find the better approach of interpretation if you will, but today was not one of those days.
Though I'm still motivated and amped, I must admit that as I pulled out of the driveway to head back to work I felt threatened almost. I felt like I was having this internal conversation that just out of the freakin' blue started to consume me! Why do I feel stronger but nothing really is changing physically that I can see?!?
That makes no sense. You're not doing enough. It has to be what you're eating. You are going to look up in another month and still be exactly the same as you are today. Yeah, you're exercising, you're eating WAY better than you were before, but clearly you have it all wrong and don't be surprised when it all crashes down again.
THESE are the talks I was having with myself today, just as recently as 1 hour ago. I'm heading into the weekend which is always the hardest part of the week for me simply because I'm not working so my schedule is so off, or I'm at home and the fridge is there to stare at.
But then I saw Coach Nicole's message about how the 'magic' is happening internally, basically regardless of what you see on the outside. I realized that hey girl, you're doing a lot better in your efforts than you were 1 1/2 months ago, take that as an accomplishment in itself! Before you did nothing, no exercise at all, and you ate fast food at least 3-4 times a week or some type of processed food. You felt like crap, couldn't sleep a wink, had headaches constantly - and now all that's changed just in this little bit of time.
It's hard realizing sometimes that there is no quick fix, and though I know that, it's still hard to be reminded of it lol, if that makes sense! No matter how much a person has to lose, they still want some type of gratification, and when you see others losing pounds and inches and you have a week or two where you don't, it gets a little disheartening. But that said, I also realize I can't base my pace and results, nor my way that I do things on someone else way because that's not fair to me.
I'm so looking forward to seeing my nutritionist for the first time at the end of the month, so I can ask many more questions specific to me and what I need to focus more or less in the department of nutrition.
Working with the better me to reach the best me.