He loves me yesterday, tomorrow, and today.
Friday, February 08, 2013
My poor beau, he should be nominated for sainthood methinks! I have been at the same weight for exactly 2 months now. Its frustrating...which is what I tell my beau on a daily basis...just in not so few of words!
When I first started tracking everything, I tried tracking my mood and energy levels...I think the graph was starting to spell out 'You're Crazy' so I stopped tracking that, lol!
My beau reassures me every single day without fail that he loves me, he wants me to be healthy so I can be with him for a long time, but he loves me how I was yesterday, how I will be tomorrow, and how I am today.
I know that I project my own feelings on to him and that is not fair for him, but it is one of those things that I don't realize that I am doing until after I have done it.
My 2 month stall bothers me.
The previous statement was edited for language and violence.
Although I know the reasons WHY I have stalled and that I am doing what I can right now, it STILL gets under my skin that I only have 24 hours in a day. On top of being sick for all of December and part of January (yep, when I get the flu, I GET it!), now I am working on packing/moving. I keep reminding myself that as long as I don't gain weight, I will be alright.
I DID manage to be productive yesterday after work, no formal exercise per se, but I got a lot of packing done. I am more than halfway done packing now and actually getting excited to be moving. I am hoping to get another several boxes packed this evening, but will have to see how much time/energy I have left after running errands after work. My ankles are not too happy with the amount of energy I had to run around the apartment like a nut packing things last night.
I also have been doing marginally better when eating. However, I am noticing that when I eat a moderately sized meal (i.e. more than a banana and 2 hard boiled egg size), my stomach bloats up in no time, not like giant or anything, but enough that I can tell its taking up the extra room in my waistband that I had been enjoying.
I am thinking that it has something to do with not having my gallbladder, but then again, I am wondering if it has something to do with eating carbs. I think I am going to try tracking my food on paper and track my tummy discomfort at the same time to see if I can tell what is going on. I am thinking that doing it on paper will be a bit easier while we are relocating since I am not sure when I will have enough time to track it on the food tracker here.