Friday, February 08, 2013
Oh gosh, I am so sick today. As you all know, I've been excellent all week with my eating and exercise. Well yesterday, one of my best friends came over to hang out. We ran around at the park with my daughter, I even cooked a healthy dinner for us. Then we sat down to have a movie night... she had some chips and I figured I could treat myself to a handful of them, since I've been so on point all week. What a disaster inducing mistake!!!! One handful turned into a couple handfuls... and then a bunch of Hot Cheetos... and then an ice cream bar... and then donuts... and then a half sleeve of girl scout cookies... WHY?! I know that I am human, and to err is human. But I don't understand why I do this to myself. If I slip up a little, I throw it all away and just start eating anything and everything that pops into my greedy mind at the time. I know one bad day won't erase all the good days, and I'm not even really angry at myself for slipping up. I'm more angry because I lose self control when it happens. I get the notion that I can have everything for one day which isn't good. Which brings me to today. Ugh. I woke up very groggy, with a very upset stomach. I choked down breakfast because I know I have to carry on. I talked myself into workout mode. I worked out. Now. I'm valiantly trying to eat my after workout snack which is not wanting to go down very well. I'm so freaking nauseated. I know I still need to eat my meals and snacks and keep pushing through til tomorrow when I will undoubtedly feel better. But the day after a binge is always the worst. That's why im apologizing to myself. I'm so sorry, dear stomach, for making you so upset. I will try my hardest not to do it again.
I'm also sorry that I'm still making you eat right now, because even though its healthy food, I know you feel like throwing it all back up. Please don't. Please be patient and forgiving to my mistakes. I will try harder. Today I will nurse you with light, healthy food, and lots of water. Hopefully tomorrow you will be happier with me.
Side note, the muscles in my legs are firming up. I love the Biggest Loser workouts. I will be a sexy momma by my birthday (November 28)! I'm determined!
Now excuse me while I gag down the rest of my yogurt and then go grocery shopping before work.