CAPS LOCK RAGE. Or: Emma Mad, Emma Smash
Friday, February 08, 2013
I'm so frustrated, guys. I am seriously considering abandoning this ST-centric program and switching back to a high calorie burn cardio program. I wanted to keep it up through February, but I'm so irritated with the fact that I've lost a whoppin' 4 lbs over the last month.
I'm feeling the pressure of seeing my goal date coming up so soon, just 18 weeks, and if I only lose a freaking pound a week, I won't be there. I won't even be out of the "obese" range by then. ARGH.
I lost one pound last week, and maintained this week. I keep trying to tell myself that - yeah, big deal! You lost one pound - BUT you lost two inches off your waist and hips! That's something! That's huge!
But you know what? I'm still obese. I feel like I'm always GOING to be obese. UGH.
WHAT IS UP, BODY?! COME ON NOW. HELP ME OUT.
You know what though? I knew this part of the journey was going to be hard. I have a healthy body fat percentage at this point, and any weight loss I have going forward is going to be difficult because I don't want to lose any muscle mass. That means doing lots of ST and losing body fat slowly.
I have 64 pounds of pure fat on my body. That means 161 lbs of my body is bone, organs, and lean muscle mass. For a "fitness" level of body fat, or 21%, I have to lose something like 23 pounds of body fat. My body just wants to hang on to that extra cushioning. But I'm not okay with that.
Well, I feel better after venting and I'm going to stick with the program for a while longer. I'm going to do two Zumba classes a week from here on out, though and try to ride my bike a little more often at home.