I'm not saying I gave up... But I gave up.
Friday, February 08, 2013
Ok, so that blog title doesn't exactly explain it, but allow me. As most of you know, I've been working on C25K, and for the most part I was doing really well. Then Week 4 day 1 happened, and I learned something about my body. At 238 pounds on a 5'4 frame, running for that long HURT. Badly. I gave it a go twice. I was able to complete the workout, but I caught myself doing something dangerous: running through pain. Somehow I talked myself into being ok with that for the first workout. When I did it the second time, that common-sense light bulb turned on and I realized that if I kept up this way, I would quit. Nobody likes to feel pain. Especially in your legs while you're running. So I "quit" C25K... for now.
Now this is not to say that I have given up altogether. I've made the decision to focus on getting my weight down to 200lbs and then reboot C25K. I know I can do it mentally. But physically is an entirely different story. Rather than risk injury and putting myself out of the game for god-knows-how-long, I'm looking into some other alternatives.
This week I went for 2 walks with my new puppy. He's still young, so he doesn't last too long, but he makes it. And I felt great! I also ordered DDPYoga, which is changing lives every where, and if you haven't seen the video of Arthur Boorman, you NEED to. He is so inspiring and really makes you take a look at what motivates you. Here is the link to the video on YouTube: www.youtube.com/watch?v=
I'll update when I start doing the workouts.
So maybe my "give-up" is not so much quitting, but redirecting my goals. I know what I am capable of mentally and physically. I know that I don't want to weigh this much anymore.
So really, I will never, EVER, give up :)