Yep, I put myself WAY, WAY outside of my comfort zone and did a Boudoir photo shoot. Partly for myself and partly for my wonderful boyfriend. It was something I had been planning since late November, I believe. I spent hours online researching 'plus size' lingerie and tips for 'plus size' posing tips, etc. I bought an obscenely expensive authentic steel boned corset (figured if steel wasn't enough to suck it all in and keep it all in place then nothing ever would) and schemed away.
I did the photo shoot a few weeks ago. The photographer actually came to my house, I had one of my best friends here to give me moral support and lend a hand with tying me up into the corset as well as making sure that when I got the 'deer in headlights' look that she would help me adjust the pose, etc. I have to say, we had a blast. It was so many laughs, so much fun. I opted for a package with the photographer that included having my hair and makeup done and then won a 50% off raffle at her website to go towards my sitting. So....Score! She is a local woman who is just getting started with beginning a photo business so her rates were already ridiculously reasonable and with the 50% off it was only $80.
The difficult thing is that she was laid low with the flu for a week and a half. So while I have a handful of preview photos, I don't have the final package to get printed into the book I was planning for my fella. This was originally going to be for his birthday which was yesterday but due to the flu, I had pushed out to next Thurs. Then yesterday the photographer had a family emergency and had to leave town due to what appears to be the imminent death of a family member. Very sad.
Needless to say, I don't anticipate having the photos in time for Valentine's day either. My little pictures certainly are not as important as her family. So on the fly I wrote up a letter for my boyfriend explaining why I chose to do this for him. (not 1 girlie mag, not one porn and not one time have I ever 'caught' him looking at another woman in 8 years. Even when I weighed almost 300 lbs and couldn't love myself, he loved me) and then sent him 3 photos as a 'preview' of what was to come as part of his birthday present.
It was a HUGE hit. He was amazed, I think more at the idea that I would do it than the few pictures he got. (I am notorious for being exceedingly un-photogenic) Anyway, after a really lovely dinner of T-bones, twice baked potatoes and corn, he requested that I show him the corset as he was curious since none of the pics he got showed it.
Let me just say that it was a very romantic evening and I no longer have even one doubt that he will LOVE whatever pictures I have made up for him. It was so nice to feel desirable and to be desired.
I was going to wait until I was at my goal weight to do this and then decided that my life won't begin 50 lbs from now, why should I wait? Photoshop exists for a reason if there is anything that I really couldn't live with.
For myself, it was absolutely empowering and seeing myself in some of those photos, I understand now some of what he sees in me-physically at least!
If any of you ladies out there have wondered about doing one of these shoots, either for yourself or your partner, it was a very positive experience for me and I would advise that you give it a shot! I will leave you with a couple of pictures.