So this lack of sleeping is wearing me down. Sometimes I like to be up at 3am and listen to the quietness. I don't have much of that working and owning a daycare! Too bad businesses are closed or else I could get a lot done. I gained this week, I didn't try as hard as I had been and didn't do any formal exercise but I cleaned the basement on my day off. I am also washing all the daycare dishes and running around there since we are trying to save money. But my mind is really on the fact that we are meeting with Fr. to ask if we can use frozen eggs that my dr has at his office. Trying to have a family takes a tool emotionally and financially. Adoption ranges from $15,000 to $30,000. It is all too exhausting to figure out and then add not sleeping into the mix due to worrying and it doesn't make it any better. Oh well so it is my life for the moment.