Friday, February 08, 2013
Where do I begin? I have been doing so well tracking and working out, staying within my calorie range, etc and then the stress of having my very first published article kicked in hard. I got it turned in, edited and squeaked in before the deadline. But I did pay a heavy price I didn't take the time to think about what I was eating and when it was just eat and go. Uh, haven't we been down this road before?!?!? Like just in the last couple of weeks? Still struggling with this whole nutrition thing. Very frustrating to say the least. I know what I should be doing but for some reason what I should be doing and what I am doing are 2 totally different ideas that don't seem to line up. Time to get back up and jump right back on the wagon. It didn't help that Monday I woke up with a sharp pain in the arch of my right foot that bothered me for majority of the week as well.
I have also noticed that the more I fight this battle the lazier my husband becomes. I would love to institute a rule that for a certain number of hours a day the TV cannot be on in our home. It seems like that darn thing never gets turned off! It's rubbing off on my son and not in a good way. I know the weather has not been very cooperative lately but come on. Take the child outside to at least ride his bike for awhile but I'm the only one who will do that. I can't tell you how many times I have come home and my husband is sound asleep at 3:30-4:00 in the afternoon and my 5 year old is just kinda hanging out in his room. I know that if someone tried to come in my dogs would protect him, we own 2 boxers that are very protective of him, but that's not the point. I go to class all day on Mondays and Wednesdays with a very short break between classes that don't even justify running home alot of times. When I do get home most of the time the dishes are still in the sink dirty and the kiddo needs to be tended to but there he is sound asleep. He even watches TV on his smartphone at night that's how addicted he is to the television! I know I am ranting here but it feels good to get it out. I know he isn't Suzy housekeeper and he isn't me so his standards of clean and mine are different but I would appreciate a little help every once in awhile. It's exhausting after being in class all day, working out at the fitness center for a minimum of a hour a day, and then coming home to take care of my home and family(dogs included). I have often thought about divorcing him but I don't want to be divorced twice but I'm going to lose my freaking mind if something doesn't change soon. I hardly have any time to do my homework because I am always being mommy, chef, housekeeper and trying to find the time to workout and eat correctly. I don't know what to do.