Thursday, February 07, 2013
I had a great lunch meeting with my Pastor today who wanted to pick my brain a bit and help me to explore where I can best fit with my role at 33Church. It was such a thought provoking, eye opening conversation that caused me to explore areas in my life that I have let go dormant, that I have ignored, that I haven't nurtured in a while. It was like a cold splash of water in the face that jolted me out of my melancholy state of mind. No time for the ordinary, no time for pity parties and wishy washy feelings. No time to lament over broken promises, broken relationships, being out of fellowship and out of order. Time to put things back into place that work in my life, time to regulate and eliminate time wasters, time to give God 100% all the time, not just when I am on a hot streak or when I feel like it.
Pastor bought to mind I no longer have to stay busy being busy, to fill voids just because loneliness invades. I am middle aged-going to be 51 years and it is nothing to be ashamed about. I have made it this far through grace and I am grateful and humbled that God chose me to do a mighty work. He said in His word, Jeremiah 29:11 that He has a great hope and a great future for me. These dry winter blues, I have to cast down, to be rid of them, to let them go and rejoice in life, continue to work on project me and live my best life out loud! Me, carrying around the same old issues, the same old baggage, the same old insecurities is old news. I serve a great and wonderful Father and I have a great and wonderful story to tell!