What do I want really?
Thursday, February 07, 2013
(I'm not really good at blogging, but I speak a lot, please forgive me in advance...)
When I was much younger, I worried my dad, because no matter how much I ate, I would never gain weight. I was very very thin and very short. Within a year of my arrival to the US, all of that changed. I grew quickly in many different ways- vertically and horizontally. I never thought too much of it, so long as I was happy and able to function. I moved through life without placing much emphasis on my diet or on exercise.
This all changed when I got on my scale and it rounded past the 200 lb mark. I could not believe that I had gained weight to that point, primarily because although my clothes were slightly tighter I could still put them on without too much issue. I joined spark people with a friend and with the determination to lose weight and develop a more healthy lifestyle. But soon after joining and losing a few pounds, I became bogged down with work and school.
A year has passed, and I have decided to start over again. My first question to myself was, "What do I want?" The second is, "really?" These are the questions that keep me trudging to the gym at hours I could be sleeping- the questions that push me to look at my present self and who I want her to be...