Thursday, February 07, 2013
It has been almost a year since I started my journey here with Sparkpeople and I have had many ups and downs. I started out so strong with recording all my food and being more active. Then I got confident once the weight fell off and I stopped recording. For the longest time even this was okay. It was second nature to eat less so the weight still was dropping off.
Then in October I had an operation that laid me up for about a month. So I ate more and exercised less. The weight stopped dropping but it did not go higher either. I felt like I had finally found a way to live that I could keep up. I had lost 76 pounds and people were really starting to notice. I felt great. I even started logging in my foods again so I knew what I was eating.
Fast forward to December and the month of baking. All those Christmas cookies were calling my name. At first I just had one, but before long I was eating more then I even want to recall. I once again stopped recording my foods. I could not stand thinking about all the calories I was taking in. I was weighing myself every day to make sure that my weight gain did not go over 3 pounds. If it did, I would go back to eating the way I did to lose weight in the first place. It began a cycle of eating whatever I wanted for a day and boy did I eat a lot. To eating right for two days to get the weight back done. Talk about the wrong way to go about things. Finally I just stopped doing even that. I pretty much went back to eating like I used to before I started on Sparkpeople. After all how bad could that be.
I did not want to admit that my weight was out of control once again. Who did it hurt if I didn't log in what I ate or weighed myself? The answer I found was ME! My clothes started to feel tighter and I did not feel good a lot of the time. I finally broke down and got weighed. I had put back on 21 pounds in only a month and a half. YUCK!!!!!
So once again I am back to try to change the way I deal with food. I am so grateful that I have Sparkpeople to come back to. I know that I will have to make changes that I can live with the rest of my life. So today is the first day of the rest of my life.