Thursday, February 07, 2013
I started my day at peace, but just a phone call was enough to make it all go downhill.
Today my friend's mom passed away, and to make things even worst my friend is miles away in a hospital slowly dying herself. She doesn't know that her mom died today, I know her family has told her but I don't think she can hear them. She is in life support after stage four kidney failure and stage 4 lung failure.
it makes me realize how fragile life is. We think we got the rest of our lives to do such and such but how long is the rest of our lives exactly?
Sussy my friend was a very outgoing person, always smiling, always flirting, i loved her enthusiasm for everything, but deep down I could see her facade. She longed for peace and love. She loved her family but they were always arguing, she was seen as ignorant by them because she was disabled and she always tried so hard to be accepted. Her marriage of twelve years came crumbling down and she was in the middle of an ugly divorce. She talked of all the things she wanted to do, but now she won't get the chance.
Her sister says the doctor are just waiting, there is really nothing more that can be done. I know that if she does pass away she will be in a better place but it still saddens me that I can't be there to talk to her in her final hours. I always let her do the talking and she always urged me to talk, to say what i needed to say, i never did. Now I wish i could confide in her like she did with me. Sussy more than a friend was like my older sister. She was my baby sitter when I was a little girl and she continued being a friend even until now. I've known her for more than half my life. teaches me that you really never know what tomorrow has in store for you. One minute you are here and then... I know I am rambling and i am so sorry but I needed to say this.