Thursday, February 07, 2013
Yes, I've been gone. But yes, I am back!
I have a few reasons for coming back.
1) Obviously, need to lose weight!
2)Want to look good in photos for upcoming trip to Fiji and to be a bridesmaid at my be sties wedding in November!
3) I don't want my daughter to be embarrassed of me.
4) I want to get into healthy eating habits so that she has healthy eating habits.
5) Most importantly, I don't want to still be referring to myself as "fat" when she's old enough to understand what I'm saying. I don't want to put my body image issues onto her.
I've tried these before, but I'm going back on the meal replacement shakes. I bought enough for three weeks, and as I promised Mr Neil, I will stick out those three weeks as to have no wasted the money. It's just until I realise I have enough discipline to eat actual food, correctly - i.e. the right food and the RIGHT AMOUNT of it. Because telling myself that i can eat a Big Mac because it has lettuce in it... Yea you weren't even kidding yourself there girlie!
Anyway, onto other stuff (because it's not all about food!) I have a daughter! I don't know if I mentioned that before, because I have been away for a while. She came into the world via elective c-section as she was breech. She was born not breathing, and poor Mr Neil watched as she was giving heart compressions and oxygen. At three weeks, she went into surgery to remove a mass from her bowel (only two years after mu Mum had bowel surgery to remove cancer.) At six weeks old, she came with me to hospital to visit my dad, every day for 10 days, while he recovered from heart surgery (almost didn't wake up from it.) So Mr Neil and I have battled a lot over the past few years - the three miscarriages, the baby drama, my folks getting sick. We really need to look after ourselves. And this is where SP comes back into my life. Because I lost weight here, with all of you cheering me on. And I can do it again. And I need to, for Evie. (I'll post a pic of her, so you can see how gorgeous she is !)