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How I got this way

Thursday, February 07, 2013

I have been having a stressful childhood and there were a lot of yelling between my parents. Eventually tIhey have gotten divorced. I have never lived away from my mom except when I am in the dorm at Blind Indistries. I have graduated with a diploma, AA degress, and BS. My disabilities came because of Eastern Equine Encyphalitis as a baby. Some stuff may or may not relate to the 3 mile island incident as well. Due to the disabilities, I have been told I can't by a lot more people than those who thought I could. With all of that I have low confidince and low self-esteem. I am sure that some of the fears came from all of this. I have been struggling with how to deal with emotions and even with what the emotions are. I have been going between under eating and over eating and I am sure that at least part if not the full thing relates to my emotions. I am finanically not able to move away from my momm and both my mom and step-dad thinks that I need to be better than everyone else.

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CINDYCHARLENE 2/14/2013 11:17PM

    You can overcome this adversity with your faith in God. He loves you beyond any earthy parent and I know this because I have personally experienced His love. It is beyond incredible and changed my life from a victim mentality to a person of infinite worth. You are a daughter of God and you are of infinite worth too. God bless you to know your worth as an individual, in spite of your disabilities.

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SLIMLILA 2/10/2013 9:05PM

    I know many of these feelings, it makes life difficult, but struggles make us stronger....

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MCGS62 2/8/2013 10:13AM

You can do anything you put your mind to. Stop listening to the people that say that you can not-- that is called projection what they are admitting to you is that they themselves can not --therefore assume you you will not be able to achieve either.

don't listen to people of a lesser caliber

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SABLENESS 2/7/2013 7:13PM

    emoticon Wishing you the grace to grow only into the unique and awesome person that you are. No one else in the universe is exactly like you, with your challenges AND your gifts.

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LINDA! 2/7/2013 6:44PM


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CARRAND 2/7/2013 4:33PM

    Sorry for all the stress in your life. Recognizing it and moving on from there is a good way to start.

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GRACEOMALLEY 2/7/2013 2:56PM

    Some very wise advice I received once upon a time is:
You only need to try to be better than yourself - you are the only person you truly want to show up.

Start from there - how can you be better today than you were yesterday at one small thing? It can be as simple as Yesterday I ate 10 cookie. Today I will not eat more than 8 cookies.

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