Thursday, February 07, 2013
About two years ago I weighed 135 lbs. I was very happy at that weight. I felt good and I loved wearing smaller clothes. Now I weigh 160. In the past few years I have had four knee surgeries; the last one last March. In addition I have a balance problem and I have no idea why. At this point I am dealing with arthritis and recovering from the flu. Sometimes I have a lot of energy. Yesterday we needed to pick up some things at the store. I thought I was fine until I walked in and realized I had absolutely no energy.
I haven't yet started exercising again. I know I have to. Right now I feel that I am in a stalemate. I hate my weight and I know I will not be able to exercise at the same level as I did before. Sometimes I think it is impossible to get back to where I was. Ever been in a position where you know you need to do something and are afraid you can't do it? That is where I am now. Hopefully I can get past that and start exercising. I'm very limited because I can't do floor exercises. Long story, but I had a flu that turned into two pneumonias and finally I lost the use of my arms and legs. Well thanks for listening.