Thursday, February 07, 2013
I've finally found my way back to Spark, after going "off the wagon" and eventually, as usual, regaining the 35 pounds I worked so hard to lose 2 years ago. For the past 6 years, every other year I work really really hard to lose 30 or 35, and then the following year I gain it all back.
I'm really tired of the yo yo. I am focusing on losing, again, that 35 pounds, because I feel SO much better at that weight, and then learning how to STAY there for a few months before diving downwards again. That's my intention.
And yes, I do know that a 35 lb loss is just barely a drop in the bucket of lard I carry around, but it makes a significant impact in my mobility and flexibility, just those 35 pounds. So right now that is my focus.
I'm LOVING my new eating plan. At this point, I do feel that this is something I could do long term. What I am now doing is working for me, so I'll just keep doing it until it needs to be tweaked.
I know the first week is easier than weeks on down the road, and I know the first 2 weeks will produce more scale loss due to water weight and such, but I am loving the fact that this morning I weighed in 4.8 pounds less than I did Monday morning! It's a great start.
I don't usually set goals because I find them discouraging if I don't meet them, and my body has its own time frame, but I would really love it if the scale showed a 10 pound loss for the first two weeks (mostly water, I know), and then a steady 2 lb loss per week thereafter for the next couple of months. I'm not sure it's possible, but I'll work hard to make it happen. Although I also know that a 1 lb loss per week is actually safer in terms of fat cells releasing toxins into the system, and breast cancer risk.
I would seriously love to be back down to my personal lowest weight, 35 pounds from where I was Monday morning, by the beginning of May. BUT, rather than dreaming and scheming, it's more important to just take it one day at a time and do the best I can and let go of the results.
For now, I am VERY happy with my new eating plan, and feel like I've found a winner. Now, I just need to work on BEING a winner.