Thursday, February 07, 2013
This past month has been overwhelming with fear, bewilderment and frustration not knowing what to do and how to do it. I feel like I am in the outer limits at times unsure of what is right and what steps to take next.
I am relying on God carrying me through this like in Footprints since the pralysis that sets in lately is a bit scary. I need to trust in a higher power that I will come out fine on the other side of this. I often want to fall apart and give up all this fighting each day but I know that is not an option if I am to have any self respect for myself and don't give it everything I got (though it seems I gave it all already and am now on what God and the angels are lending me...lol)
So frozen in time it goes on yet I still think of how many more people have it much worse and are being handed sentences from life that have no end and are much more courageous han I fighting something they know will never get better and moving on with a smile and still being worthwhile human being to themselves and others. Please God give me the humility to see my blessings no matter what and not complain.
Thank you Spark Family for being there for me along with my Higher Power.