Thursday, February 07, 2013
I started the year with a good amount of steam. I was making good decisions most of the time, I had been hired full time at my job and I truly enjoyed my life.
Then...life really happened.
I discovered my husband of 15 years was having an affair. Wow...that just blew me away. Life suddenly got really difficult, making good decisions got REALLY difficult, although exercise went way up. Eating became my major source of comfort.
Then we moved, to a new state...joys of the military and we were still going to marraige counseling and dealing with the fallout of an affair. Without going into details...very very hard on a family.
Then life really took a swing at me... on September 4, 2012 my 11 year old son was diagnosed with DIPG, an unoperable cancerous brain tumor. My life is totally and completely different now. I have gained weight, all that I lost and then some. I know the road ahead for 2013 is going to be very difficult. I'm going to have good days and bad and all I can do is try to make as many good decisions as I can. Try to fit in exercise and try to substitute water for soda when I can.
I'm not sure how I'm going to fare, but I need to start before my health affects how I care for my son and my girls. They all need me.
There are weekly oncology appointments, daily chemotherapy, caring for my son, watching my youngest daughter's asthma, making sure my oldest daughter doesn't feel left out and generally being on top of everything. Food brings me comfort and I need to de-stress with somethign besides donuts and jelly beans.
Wish me luck