Wednesday, February 06, 2013
I was doing to great. I had lost 10 lbs.. and to most this doesn't seem like all that much but to me it was SO much.
My set back could not have come at a worst time for my self- esteem. My older brother (whom I very rarely hear from) calls to tell me "Nee Nee! I was on your Facebook, and you are looking really... unhealthy. Have you gone to a gym or anything? You know my nieces will look to you as a role model and I don't want them to be obese. It isn't healthy"
Gee ya think?! and No Binx, I just felt like being fat. I thought it was a good look on me!
Like I don't know I am FAT?! I am the one who cant catch her breath when she plays with her children. Who can't go outside and keep up with my girls at the park. The one who starts panting just carrying laundry up stairs. Feeling very discouraged I decided to step on the scale and remind myself how far I have already come.... A mini pep talk if you will... EVERY POUND COUNTS!
Only to see that I have GAINED BACK 5 OF MY 10 POUNDS BACK!!!! I have kept up with exercise and eating healthy, I cut out all drinks except WATER! and I GAINED 5 POUNDS....
I now just want to curl up and cry.
But even in the mists of my pity party .. i still haven't bought a box of Girl Scout cookies and polished em off! - Although i REALLY want those Samoas my Daughter is selling!