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Wednesday, February 06, 2013

I had a couple of interesting things happen to me today...

I've been having back problems for about every 2 weeks for the past 6 months or longer. This last flare-up was the worst pain I have ever been in - I could barely even walk for 3 days. I went shoe shopping last night and bought a pair that had some good support, and let my heel hit the ground first. I've never owned a pair of shoes like this in my life. As I was walking across the street to get lunch at work, my calves started burning. It was interesting to feel my muscles working in a completely different way, because I'm walking different. The muscles in my left leg are always suuuuper tight, and when I walk with these shoes, it's almost like they are being forced to stretch out. I consider this a very good thing, and have high hopes that it will help my back out.

So, I walked across the street for lunch...
I brought my usual, healthy lunch today. For some reason it just wasn't hitting the spot AT ALL. I craved my old go-to bean and rice tacos smothered in nacho cheese sauce, and mashed potatoes covered in nacho cheese sauce. I totally broke down!!! I told myself that one day is not going to kill my efforts. Which they won't. BAD IDEA!! I'm just glad I'm able to recognize what I'm doing to myself, and that is what I find interesting about this. I'm so used to eating all the wrong foods for my body that I've grown accustomed to feeling bloated and having this big ol' tummy stick out like I'm pregnant all the time. Eating healthy makes me lose that feeling. It's different. I feel empty. I'm not complaining that eating healthy makes me feel good, it's just a different feeling than I'm used to. It's almost like my body is telling me, "Oh no! I feel different! Being bloated is where I'm comfortable, it's what I'm used to. Make me bloated again." I totally regret having that lunch.

Having a healthy lifestyle is all about change and feeling different. We can't keep going back to what we've always known, or we won't change or feel any different. Somehow we need to engrave in our brain how bad foods make us feel, so we won't go back there again. I was doing so well in the eating department, but I'm not going to beat myself up over it - it's not worth it. Tomorrow is a new day! I ruined my dairy-free streak for the Superbowl, I need to get back to it!
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    I hope your new shoes help. Having back pain can mess with your normal coping skills. Sounds like you are going to get back on track.
    I have chronic back problems and find I need to loosen my calf and leg muscle a lot. When I can put the necessary time into gently stretching these muscles, my back usually isn't as painful.
    I finally bought inserts, and that is a Hugh help too.
    I hope your pain goes away permanent soon.
    emoticon everyday is a new opportunity to be healthy. Sincerely, Julia
    1866 days ago
  • KIMBERLY19732
    Milk, milkshakes especially KILL my gut. Sometimes I *just have* to have some it reminds me of how SICK i get. Like my body needs to know "ITS STILL BAD!" lol
    1866 days ago
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