Wednesday, February 06, 2013
There are so many wonderful things that are happening on my journey but that dysfunctional emotion FEAR still lurks its ugly head to try and knock us down. I went for a walk mostly because I was upset didn't want to argue or eat so I walked. Not paying attention to where I was going or how far(nighttime ) I just kept walking. Then I stopped....realize where I was and how far I was to get backhome and the fact my phone battery was really low, it was getting cold.....i became anxious and afraid I wouldn't make it back home that my knees would give out all sort of things start running through my mind! I found a bus stop bench and sat down called my hunni to come pick me up. I had literally scared myself into believing I couldn't get back home. Fear....is as real as we let it be. I felt like such a fool when my hunni got there, questioning why I was so far from home, why didn't I just turn around. Of course I had no answers for him cuz I was too wrapped up in feeling sorry for myself. So I decided I will knowingly do that walk again(1.5mile) this time I will return home on foot.
Will let you all know how it goes
Fear can be a great motivator... I will not let it stop me in my tracks again!