Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Long story short: I had a setback and a gain. January was bad for me. It has /always/been bad for me... every January it seems I gain no matter how good my intentions.
Luckily, February is here, and this week we are getting out of the deep freeze (finally breaking above 32 F), so I am planning to get outside more to get some sunshine!
I've been trying very hard these last few weeks to get back on track, and I am finally feeling confident again. My eating habits are much better, I am incorporating more fruits and vegetables and tracking faithfully. My sleep is on schedule. I need to reevaluate my weight loss goals again, but I will do that later... for now, I am focusing on how I feel. I am aiming for health, above all else.
The scale is slowly creeping downward. I am headed in the right direction; so I will keep on going, pushing myself just a little bit further each day. I am going to get back into my walking, working my way back into running. I've decided to go to the gym Mon-Fri every morning, no excuses... even if my workout is short, even if it is not very intense, I will do /something/ five days a week. I always feel better once I'm in the gym than I do when I'm deciding whether or not to go to the gym!
Today I am getting my head on straight. Getting some long-neglected laundry done and cleaning my room so I have workout clothes and a tranquil environment.
I refuse to give up on my goals... I WILL succeed, no matter how long this takes. I am SO SICK of feeling sick -- I am tired of the pain and the fatigue. I hate that I am developing borderline-high blood pressure! I want to be healthy no matter what, and that means exercise and losing more of this weight.
It helps to remember that, although I gained a lot last month, I am still lower than I was last year at this time, so I am making progress despite my 2012 setbacks. I will do my best to make even more progress this year... I am optimistic. I KNOW that I will be getting into the 200's this year and reversing my health issues, and that thought will carry me through on the tough days.
I've decided to restart my MGB/WUB (Monthly goal blogs, weekly update blogs) and to blog more in general. Re-reading my goals always helps me focus and I miss connecting with my Sparkfriends.. So here I am.
-Forgive self for the gain (Dear self: I forgive you! Let's move forward from here.)
-Cardio 5x per week
-Strength training at least twice a week
-Track all calories eaten, work on mindfulness
-Stay positive and focused on the small decisions which make me feel strong, healthy, and happy.