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I was so full of marlarkey when I called it a "hiatus"...

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Ok, so my last post (almost a full year ago) had me disappointed with ONLY being able to fit into my skinny jeans, and not seeing any movement on the scale. I remember how it felt -- disappointing to get on that scale every week and see 149.

Now I get on the scale and see 163. Back to where I started last time. I actually had to go into my giant Goodwill pile and dig out my big jeans, because I was down to 2 pairs that I could squeeze into, and I'm pretty sure my coworkers were starting to notice my habitual haberdashery.

And for the icing on the cake (ahem... granola on my fat free yogurt?) I went to the doctor today, and he mentioned that I need to lose some weight to get to a healthy BMI. I has a sad! I was doing great, but not being able to focus on non-scale victories made me give up all my progress and nudge back to an unhealthy BMI.

So, hard look in the mirror time: I don't think I will ever be able to take a hiatus from tracking my food and exercise. It is much too easy to slip into old habits. It always will be. Thankfully, I have not given up my exercise (I love it!), but I need to really focus again on all the items I let pass my lips. Just like everyone else in the world. But this time, I won't be able to trick myself into giving up.
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  • JENNA54
    Same story for me I'm afraid, I could kick myself at not keeping the weight off! Here's to us, and everyone else out there in SparkLand - we can do it! Just never give up - it's not how many times you fall over, it's how many times you get up. With you every step of the way.
    1811 days ago
    You are not alone there. It takes a lot of personal growth to look past that number on the scale and see your prgoress for what it is. You always hear that you need to appreciate yourself for the body you have currently, not the body you want to have. That is easier said than done. However, if you can manage to do that, I think it minimizes the guilt eating.

    1811 days ago
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