Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Ok, so my last post (almost a full year ago) had me disappointed with ONLY being able to fit into my skinny jeans, and not seeing any movement on the scale. I remember how it felt -- disappointing to get on that scale every week and see 149.
Now I get on the scale and see 163. Back to where I started last time. I actually had to go into my giant Goodwill pile and dig out my big jeans, because I was down to 2 pairs that I could squeeze into, and I'm pretty sure my coworkers were starting to notice my habitual haberdashery.
And for the icing on the cake (ahem... granola on my fat free yogurt?) I went to the doctor today, and he mentioned that I need to lose some weight to get to a healthy BMI. I has a sad! I was doing great, but not being able to focus on non-scale victories made me give up all my progress and nudge back to an unhealthy BMI.
So, hard look in the mirror time: I don't think I will ever be able to take a hiatus from tracking my food and exercise. It is much too easy to slip into old habits. It always will be. Thankfully, I have not given up my exercise (I love it!), but I need to really focus again on all the items I let pass my lips. Just like everyone else in the world. But this time, I won't be able to trick myself into giving up.