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Wednesday, February 06, 2013

I haven't been stuck on day 1 so that's a good thing. I've been walking with hubby (as much as he can with his back) and trying to get my body's strength back up. Yesterday I was able to do the week 1 of C25. It wasn't so much the gasping for air this time, but rather calf cramping during the first half. I kept pushing though and completed it. I'm debating on continuing day 2 & 3 in a row since the girls and I leave for Vegas on Friday. I don't want to say "oh I'll do it there" because hellloooooooo it's VEGAS?! Talked myself into it. Week 1 day 2, in the fog...today.

My family has been strangely supportive lately. Yes, I used the word strangely. Although I'm not used to such things, and maybe there are ulterior motives to the support, it feels very nice. My Kate, who is my very tall ballerina, wants better arms. She has accepted the fact that our family produced very tall, very "big boned" women but still wants to look good and really, I can't argue that. We did the Biggest Loser workout together and even though I was gasping and begging Bob for a little mercy on the "low intensity" workout my daughter was not impressed. She's looking more for arm sculpting. So, I'll find some nice dumbbell routines for her arms. The youngest Nicole comes home from cheer and says "you want to workout with me?" and was not pleased when I told her I just worked out.

My husband even took the time to go in the bedroom to let me work out. That's right. The man gave up his living room tv set. But...........................
.there's more.

I had been in kind of a kanundrum about self identity lately. See, you all know I just love color and the 80s. and I do. This is me:

**sears, I may to to buy this...**

**either woman actually....ruthless people**

**I wanted to be Madonna (1983) OR

**still awesome today**

However, some days I dream of being this:

**so clean, so classic**

**absolutely timeless**

**okay, who WOULDN'T love to look this way?**

We were shopping at Target the other day and I told him. "I was going to buy this purple purse because I just love it, but this black and white purse is the person I want to be: all classic and clean. So, I didn't buy either. What do you think?" He looked at me. I couldn't tell if he was exasperated or perplexed that I'd spring this dilemma on him. He immediately threw the purple purse in the cart. "It's you" he said and kept going.

I suppose it is. But I still look at that black and white, the cleanness of it. Then I look at my shoes, all hot pink and ready to run. I'm a nut....40something and I still don't know who I am.

Maybe I can be both. It's possible to mesh one world with another right? Well, I have 40 pounds to figure out how to get out of the life of sweats and into something a little more "fashionable".

Let's see...if I were to mesh the two together. Self, meet self. It would probably look like:

So that is what happens when I meet myself. I love her! Mission accomplished.
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    Love it! Mesh it up all the way :) There is no rule that says you have to be defined by a certain age. Change is what makes the world go round!
    1865 days ago
  • MOCHA2470
    It 'a always going to be a journey to discover who you really are. We are all there! Keep up the Good work!
    1867 days ago
    1869 days ago
    Ah Stevie Nix, so beautiful! And today, just as beautiful as she was back then.
    1869 days ago
    Get what makes your heart sing (love that the hubby threw the purple one in and said..."it's you"). You are such a breath of fresh air. I think of you in fun things, but I could totally see you decked out in the glamorous ones as well. Do it all and wear what makes you feel spectacular for the occasion. I think you should totally get a pink tutu though :) I was class of 84 so I totally understand!
    1870 days ago
    This blog makes me smile! :) The best part about fashion is that you get to re-invent yourself every couple of years! Glad you're taking the time to introduce yourself to yourself. It sounds dumb, but changing your lifestyle creates a new self that you need to recognize. GREAT BLOG!!! :)
    1870 days ago
    Mesh the two. I love it.

    I have found when I get thin, I start dressing like a teenager. Is this a good thing? A bad thing? I am still a teenager at heart.

    I feel so much younger thinner, so why wouldn't I dress like one? :)
    1870 days ago
    Like some of the others said you can be both
    your doing so well keep up the good work
    1871 days ago
  • ARW715
    You are right, best blog ever. :)

    Congrats on starting c25k. Try Biggest Loser Yoga for sculpting, it kills my arms.

    Girls trip to vegas? Be still my heart.
    1871 days ago
    Glad to see you got past "Day 1"!!!

    Meanwhile, I need to pick out a running event just to test out my ol' flat feet again...
    (there's a 5K on 2/23 I'm considering)

    I have had no success in enticing son OR husband into the hot yoga studio w/me!
    1871 days ago
    Love it! You don't have to pick "ONE" you! Be ALL of them! Buy all the d*mn purses and chose the one you feel like using that day (from the woman who has had the same purse for nearly 5 years!)

    You crack me up!

    (Stevie Nicks - well, more Fleetwood Mac - fan, myself!)
    1871 days ago
    haha, great for Cindy Lauper! And good for your husband for giving you your purple...it's okay to want to be something. I always want to be a person who looks beautiful and arranged, but really I'm a person who showers right before bed and sleeps with wet hair. The medusa look, my husband calls it...
    1871 days ago
  • BAKER1009
    Love the blog Cori...it's so you! LOL!
    So glad the family is being supportive. Like Kim said, maybe they are finally listening to you and are ready to help you reach your goals.

    Have a super time in Vegas!!
    1871 days ago
  • LYNSEY723
    Love this blog. Awesome!
    1871 days ago
    I think I would have grabbed the purple one for you too. LOL You get to your goal weight and I will buy you a nice classic Coach purse....how's that for being supportive.

    I know what you mean about the strange support from the family as I am getting the same thing. But heck maybe they finally are HEARING us and listening to what we need from them so that we can be sucessful!
    1872 days ago
    Honey, you are ALL of it!!! That the great part about being US. I'm goth one day and classic the next. I have purple hair extensions and an Ann Klein suit (I haven't tried that on in a while - hmmm). You don't have to pick, be both. I've worn the classic black dress with pig tails and goth boots.

    You are a wonderful, glorious, fabulous individual! I adore you for it! Be proud of it.
    1872 days ago
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