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LTC for week 8

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

"If you’re stuck holding onto any guilt or resentment of yourself, how are you ever supposed to truly heal?"

Lime team challenge this week is a blog on: Can I forgive myself for the past? How will it affect my successful journey to better health?

Yes would be the right answer to the first question, but it is really no. I can not seem to get past forgiving myself for all the weight I have lost over the years and putting it all back on plus more. Every day I seem to beat myself up even though I tell myself I won't do it any more. I think this feeling guilty goes back to my childhood when I was constantly hounded for gaining weight. Of course that was when I learned to sooth my feelings with food also.

I know if I could let go of the guilt and just forgive myself I would be successful. I think I need therapy for this.

Part 2: How will I feel when I reach my goal weight? I would like to think I would finally feel great, then I wonder but will it fix everything? I think it would certainly make me feel happier, so many things in my life are painful due to this excess weight and those things would be removed.
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  • v SHANSHE
    I totally understand... you said you needed therapy, is that an option for you?
    1237 days ago
  • v SHARON10002
    "I can not seem to get past forgiving myself for all the weight I have lost over the years and putting it all back on plus more. Every day I seem to beat myself up even though I tell myself I won't do it any more. I think this feeling guilty goes back to my childhood when I was constantly hounded for gaining weight. Of course that was when I learned to sooth my feelings with food also." I'm totally with you on this one, Barb. It really is a vicious circle- feeding our emotions so we don't have to feel the pain. That's how we got where we are.

    But I do believe that we are learning different techniques for tackling this problem. We just need to remember it "in the moment". I've started congratulating myself for every time I make a healthy, good choice instead of giving in, and then feeling the positive emotion from that choice. It seems to be working for me. In spite of being very sore from the exercising for my current challenge - instead of cutting back because I'm really sore - I'm maintaining, and today was even more positive than yesterday.
    1246 days ago
  • v KRZYKAT3
    Forgiving is a truly powerful event when you can do it, I started by trying ti get rid of hostile grudges I was holding. Once I frogave the frist one, the rest came easy.

    I am struggling right with you on where to start, so I am starting small. Going to start a journal and try to list all the things I need to forgive me for! will have to get a lock on it so no one else read it though LOL

    You CAN do this, one baby step at a time!
    1267 days ago
  • v CHACHAOREO
    Be positive each and every day!!
    1268 days ago
  • v RAINBOWMF
    I don't beat myself up over the past BUT I do believe I resent how many years I have wasted on thoughts of losing weight, on always never being thin enough, my whole life since I was 13 on has been all about weight loss
    I resent that, I'm 62 this week and still dwelling on weight loss.

    We need to think HEALTHY --- healthy eating and exercise will just naturally lead to weight loss. Easier said then done.

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    Love Mary
    1268 days ago
  • v BEACHWALKER86
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    1268 days ago
  • v TRAILWALKERJO54
    Well I know one thing Barb you would be so much more happier then you are now only because you would not have all the pain you have now -- and your diabetic problems would be gone --so your over health would improve tremendously..

    Now about beating yourself up hon ... just stop you got to love yourself now as you are --forget the damn past it is not here anymore -- only the present .. you are loved by family and friends no matter ---remember that --- so you can love yourself --you are okay!!

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    1268 days ago
  • v KATHYJO56
    How is it that we can forgive others fairly easily, but when it comes to forgiving ourselves, it is extremely hard to let go. Hang in there and just try to remember that we are all human. emoticon
    1268 days ago
  • v KENSHO
    I hope you can forgive yourself in time Barbara. Hugs to you.
    1268 days ago
  • v MS.ELENI
    Many can relate. emoticon emoticon
    1268 days ago
  • v DAWNWATERWOMAN
    Awesome blog. I can totally relate to your answers as well. Learning to forgive ourselves is difficult, but I suspect well worth it! Love ya
    1268 days ago
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