Wednesday, February 06, 2013
"If you’re stuck holding onto any guilt or resentment of yourself, how are you ever supposed to truly heal?"
Lime team challenge this week is a blog on: Can I forgive myself for the past? How will it affect my successful journey to better health?
Yes would be the right answer to the first question, but it is really no. I can not seem to get past forgiving myself for all the weight I have lost over the years and putting it all back on plus more. Every day I seem to beat myself up even though I tell myself I won't do it any more. I think this feeling guilty goes back to my childhood when I was constantly hounded for gaining weight. Of course that was when I learned to sooth my feelings with food also.
I know if I could let go of the guilt and just forgive myself I would be successful. I think I need therapy for this.
Part 2: How will I feel when I reach my goal weight? I would like to think I would finally feel great, then I wonder but will it fix everything? I think it would certainly make me feel happier, so many things in my life are painful due to this excess weight and those things would be removed.