Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Slept well last night! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
! Feeling good!
Hawaii is coming fast. Wishing more and more I was a little more toned, there will surely be a lot of photographs. Also wishing I had a haircut, but I'm too worried to try some random place. But, new outfits are coming together.
Had an awful day at work. Was in another training, and felt very out-of-place. It was all the educated sassy-dressed people, and my and my cohort who barely speaks english. Our department is exempt from all these union rules protecting people from working late shifts, consecutive shifts, weekends, etc. Found out we are the only department that works overtime. Was sad to see all these people all buddy buddy with each other, and I was isolated. I was good in school, but here I'm lumped with the people who didn't graduate. I know no one is as critical as myself, but I just felt so wrong, and further burnt out on this work, and unmotivated. Still trying, though. There has to be a way to turn this around. Was also feeling strangled by the limited time off realities being shown to me, and how it seemed so normal to everyone else. I accept that I chose this, I want a stable income and a retirement fund, and this is the price I have to pay. But sometimes (ok, a lot of the time) I just have to say, "Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh