Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Why is this so hard? Why do I hit this brick wall and how do I get over it? What am I so afraid of? Every time I try to lose weight I hit the wall about 5 weeks in. I hit it when I start making real progress. Why? What AM I so afraid of? Is it success? Is it that I think I am not worth this? I have never felt that I was worth anything or that I deserved anything. I need to get over this hurdle and realize that I am worth this. I don't need anyone's approval for this. I need to validate my feelings and stop eating them. I have feelings and they are mine and they have value and so do I. I am going to start writing my feelings down and shouting them from the rooftops instead of eating them. I am going to get them out instead of internalizing them. What do I want? I want to be thin and I want to be healthy and I want to be happy. How am I going to do that? By doing what I know I have to do to achieve success. I deserve this and I am worth it.