Wednesday, February 06, 2013
I'm peeking from the cracks .. I don't want to crawl out of bed in the morning... Life is becoming very overwhelming, I'm loosing ME times, I can't seem to "do it all" .. my battery is running dry really fast .. and we're only into February .. :?
Did you ever find that when you become overwhelmed .. what is the first thing to suffer .. YOUR self support .. That's where I am now .. Things are being shot at me way too fast, and I'm just not ready for any of it ..
I soooo miss my December when I had time for ME at night, was able to "look forward" to my exercise ME time each night .. Now things are packing into my ME times; and I can just dream of the days if and when I can get them back .. I leave work .. in which I'm now up to 6- what would be 40 hour a week jobs .. I have rented out as much help as I can afford .. mentally and monetarily .. but by the time I leave work .. and finally get home .. I'm exhausted ..
I keep telling myself (I live in Wisconsin, and we've been having some first class ICKY weather) that I'm looking so forward to the warmer weather when "I can get out of this cave for at least a walk during my lunch" .. and "I want to take file boxes to the storage bin" .. just to get some activity in ..
Activity .. It really works ... I came in this morning with a MEGA chip on my shoulder .. didn't say a word to anyone, and dared anyone to look at me wrong .. I hauled 12 file boxes next door to the warehouse until I have a chance to have a nice day and get them to the storage unit ... and I feel great .. EXERCISE WORKS .. Now how can I encorporate it into my EVERY day routine, without it feeling like "just one more thing that I HAVE to do .. " ???? Hmmmmm
The struggles continue ... I think this is part of life .. these are things that can make me stronger, or make me weaker (in more ways than just physically) ..
If anyone has any ideas of incorporating exercise into my day I would really appreciate it .. Any thoughts ??? I work in a single layer building .. Our office is about the size of a "Starbucks", I do have permission to use my boss's stairstepper in back which I use when I'm really stressed .. but doing that for 5 minutes doesn't constitute "exercise" in my brain .. it constitutes "reconstructing my brain thoughts" ...
Have a wonderful day all .. Sorry -- have been busy .. No imaginary sweets today .. but I do have hot coffee and hot tea .. if you wish !!!!
and of course .. PLENTY of water !!!!!