Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Last night I meditated for the first time ever. It was…interesting. I’ve always taken a couple minutes, especially after running, to center myself but never anything as in depth as this. As I breathed and focused on relaxing myself, I kept thinking “Man, this twenty minutes is going to take forever” and “I wish I could just be skinny already!!” That’s part of why I was meditating – to talk to my body about shedding the weight and getting in shape. Instead I found myself drawn to ask for patience, to *become* patience. I can’t help but think it was so much easier the first time around (when I went from 239 to 159 in about 10 months). That time I did it by limiting my calories to 1200-1400, beat myself up if I went over, and worked out every once in a great while. And look what happened – I put the weight back on. This time I’m doing it for life. I’m going to put the RIGHT fuel in my body, build my muscles, and become healthy, not just skinny.
One day at a time…