Finding My Place Again
Wednesday, February 06, 2013
This has been the story of my life the last few months. I can't believe that I've gained back 16 lbs since October. What a freakin' waste of time! Now I have to go and lose this weight a SECOND TIME, so that I can get back to where I was and try to move forward.
I'm so pissed at myself.
I've been exercising pretty regularly for the past month and I feel good about that. Despite all that effort, my diet has been RUINING it. I manage to eat good most of the day, then I come home and I sabotage myself by making cookies or cheesecake or brownies or something awful and then eating it EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. I'm a wreck lately, when it comes to food. I am trying to get my head straight about it, but all my resolve and motivation just goes right out the window at the certain point in the day and I just don't CARE.
I hope I can get back to the balance that I maintained for so long and figure out how to find the good place I was in.