Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Letís face it.
I have one good week.
One off week.
It seems to be the rhythm.
I honestly do not think it is for typical reasons.
If someone else said this to me I would assume that they burn themselves out in the Good week, and then crash in the off.
NO my problem is a little more simple than that.
Itís a schedule issue.
I am dating a man with split custody of his son.
So every other week is my week.
I do not spend the whole week with him. Indeed, only about three days.
But since I only get those 3 out of 14, I do not prioritize my workouts on those days.
Also, there is no space in his tiny home to do so in either case.
If the weather were nice I would try to get a walk in during my lunch break on at the least the two weekdays that I end up spending the evening with him (right now it is Tues and Fri) but it really is too nasty in the winter and since I work in a bad neighborhood I cannot go out alone, so even if I could convince myself to be brave and weather the elements, I cannot convince the men who typically walk with me in the summer.
I know this sounds like excuses, and maybe they are. Next question I suppose is why canít I just get up early and fit the workout in BEFORE work.
2 reasons, and only one of them is good.
The First is that I suffer from insomnia. I often get some of my best sleep, if I get any, in the wee hours of the morning. I cannot seem to make myself get out of bed ON TIME most mornings, let alone early.
The Second may seem weird to some. Even if I could, it would be problematic. After a work out I would have to shower and wash my nearly waist length hair. My hair takes more than two hours to dry. I WILL NOT use a blow dryer. I have worked hard to have HEALTHY long hair and refuse to damage it so. Most nights I shower before bed and let my hair dry while I sleep. This particular problem of showering actually makes it more difficult to fit in decent cardio at other times of the day. I am not simply committing 45 minutes to a workout. I need far more time before I have to appear in public again.
In fact that situation is one of my biggest roadblocks to fitness. I keep feeling like I have to trade my social life for my fitness routine.
So, back on track here. None of this is insurmountable.
I could simply accept the fact that every other week I will only have time for 4 good cardio workouts instead of 5. Really that is not bad. I can also claim responsibility and start trying to eat a little healthier on date nightís etc. (I admit I calorie splurge A LOT around him)
On the opposing week I can still get my 5.
No, what is making me crazy is that I still have the rest of life to contend with and crap keeps falling on the same week.
This week for example. Last night was a no Cardio date night. Normally I would just workout tonight, make a good one, and move on.
Except we celebrate my sisterís Birthday tonight. My Mom and stepdad are visiting and I am cooking. This dinner will take time to cook. I CANNOT, workout & shower (hour) and THEN cook. It would be rude, they do not visit very often and would want to make the most of the time they spend here.
The best I can hope for is fitting in a brief one after they leave if they leave at a reasonable time. (I doubt they will and I have no wish to rush them)
I can work out Thursday. I can also manage Sunday.
So that is only 3 Cardio session, and that is what I used to do but having been stuck at this plateau so longer I am trying to INCREASE the number.
It is just frustrating.
I am looking forward to warmer weather, which will increase my chances of making up for lost treadmill time with a lunch walk.
In the end I know I am the one who is going to have to take control of the situation.
I really do want to commit to making it work, but half of the problem is that it often feel like Too much work. I fear that the frustration may someday make me give up.
Okay, time to go stare at the Santa picture for a few minutes and remind myself why I am NEVER giving up.