Wednesday, February 06, 2013
Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. once said"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.
These words have long been an inspiration to me! Sometimes I have started to climb and missed the first step and have become afraid. Were it not for faith, I would never have been able to pull myself up by the bootstraps, and try again. I can think of so many instances where this faith has pulled me through, like when I was diagnosed with cancer, when I found out that I couldn't have children, when I had to fight as a woman to succeed, and anytime financial and unfeasible issues tried to stop my goals! And there were steps to start that have proved that because of this faith I have won, like when I met my husband and was afraid to marry but did anyway or how perseverance helped me into a wonderful non-profit career where I could make a difference for over 30 years and there are many more!
Because of these experiences I am what I am today. . . . but just what if I hadn't taken that first step?
What would have happened to the 4,000+ farmers and ranchers that I have worked for who were facing foreclosure? Would some not have gotten the help needed? What would have happened to my husband when he needed me and I wasn't there? Where would my my family and friends be when they needed me?
I thought my life was over when I found out that I could not be a Mom. If I were a Mom I wouldn't have had my life as a farm advocate... what if I had said no to my husband. . .. my joy, my soul mate and my confidant would have been absent! I would not have met the friends both new and old that I did and still am, and I would not be the patient my oncologist called “the cat with nine lives”.
This is not to say that I wear a halo or that I am all things to everything and everybody...it is to say that behind every cloud there is a silver lining, a purpose!
Today I am 67 years young. I suppose that it would seem to those younger that I can sit back and take it easy....sorry that first step is just as important today as it was a half century ago! I am still making decisions to take the first step that will follow me the rest of my life! I may not know what lies ahead but the one thing that I can be sure of is that because I took the first step so many years ago, when it happens and it will happen, I can do it again and again if need arises.
Today I wanted to reminisce some about the past but I am my past today and where I go is still up to me. So I can do it or I can feel pity for my actions. I will miss and I will get up and take that first step up so that I find the sun behind the clouds!!