Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. once said"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.
These words have long been an inspiration to me! Sometimes I have started to climb and missed the first step and have become afraid. Were it not for faith, I would never have been able to pull myself up by the bootstraps, and try again. I can think of so many instances where this faith has pulled me through, like when I was diagnosed with cancer, when I found out that I couldn't have children, when I had to fight as a woman to succeed, and anytime financial and unfeasible issues tried to stop my goals! And there were steps to start that have proved that because of this faith I have won, like when I met my husband and was afraid to marry but did anyway or how perseverance helped me into a wonderful non-profit career where I could make a difference for over 30 years and there are many more!
Because of these experiences I am what I am today. . . . but just what if I hadn't taken that first step?
What would have happened to the 4,000+ farmers and ranchers that I have worked for who were facing foreclosure? Would some not have gotten the help needed? What would have happened to my husband when he needed me and I wasn't there? Where would my my family and friends be when they needed me?
I thought my life was over when I found out that I could not be a Mom. If I were a Mom I wouldn't have had my life as a farm advocate... what if I had said no to my husband. . .. my joy, my soul mate and my confidant would have been absent! I would not have met the friends both new and old that I did and still am, and I would not be the patient my oncologist called “the cat with nine lives”.
This is not to say that I wear a halo or that I am all things to everything and everybody...it is to say that behind every cloud there is a silver lining, a purpose!
Today I am 67 years young. I suppose that it would seem to those younger that I can sit back and take it easy....sorry that first step is just as important today as it was a half century ago! I am still making decisions to take the first step that will follow me the rest of my life! I may not know what lies ahead but the one thing that I can be sure of is that because I took the first step so many years ago, when it happens and it will happen, I can do it again and again if need arises.
Today I wanted to reminisce some about the past but I am my past today and where I go is still up to me. So I can do it or I can feel pity for my actions. I will miss and I will get up and take that first step up so that I find the sun behind the clouds!!