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Wednesday, February 06, 2013

The Self Indulgent Part

I'm sad. There's been a lot of sh!t handed to me and to the people I love lately, and it sucks. I'm sick of cancer claiming my people, I'm sick of hearing about another terminal diagnosis, I'm sad for friends' babies with birth defects and other babies needing corrective surgery at two months old. I'm sick of failed relationships. I'm tired of gaining weight because I'm stress eating because I don't know what else to do. I'm dwelling. I'm moping. I'm hibernating. I'm tired of being sad. It's exhausting and debilitating.

The Better Part

I'm not *always* sad. I have good things in my life too. I have amazing friends and family who ALWAYS go out of their way to say a kind word, to listen, to check in on me, to coax me out to dinner even when I don't want to get off the couch. And when I'm distracted and busy, I'm not dwelling on the negative. I *am* capable of happiness, even in the midst of attending my second funeral in a month.

I'm back to the gym, I'm starting to get the food under control. I'm consciously choosing - not always, but more often - to focus on the positive and stop dwelling on the negative.

I saw this on Facebook the other day, and I've been trying to play it on repeat in my head ever since.

Things will get better. Time heals, right? In the meantime, I will focus on the positives in my life and keep moving forward.
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    Totally cheesy but I love the quote "God doesn't give us more in life than we can handle". I'm not an overly religious person but I know you are tough enough to handle whatever comes your way. I know it's hard to go through these rough patches but I truly believe it makes us stronger in the end and it teaches us about how strong we really are.
    Time does heal all wounds that I know for a fact. So just keep repeating that phrase from FB to yourself to get through these days and make it to the other side.
    1872 days ago
    Hugs! Things will get better.
    1872 days ago
    Big hugs girl. Time does heal. I don't know why some of us get the short end of the stick more often than other people, but I feel like our time for good karma and happiness will come in time. Stay strong !!! And you have a great support system here on the rough days where you just feel like curling into a ball. :-)

    1872 days ago
  • HHB4181
    sorry to hear you've been going thru a rough time, I hope things change for you soon
    1872 days ago
  • JSPIN74
    it's true & won't always be this way....

    sending good wishes & vibes emoticon
    1872 days ago
    Hugs xoxo !!! It will get better!
    1872 days ago
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