Wednesday, February 06, 2013
When you limit your vision (as I have), sometimes all you can manage is getting from Point A to Point B. Lately, my life feels all about work, and what I can do to get ahead, and I am getting ahead. The deal is not yet inked but I have taken on tons of new responsibilities and once the re-org shakes out, out pops the title and level I have been working for.
Great. All great.
But, what else?
What else is there? I have a tendency to terrorize myself when I am faced with new challenges with a head full of doubt. I have a tendency to think I don't matter in all of this when I know the exact opposite is true (I matter the most.)
Yesterday I was having a meeting with one of my new direct reports and he suffers from lack of self. Deeply. In my head, even I am not that bad, and actually I am not, but I started looking at myself through his eyes, (or rather my perception of his perception ...back up while I get a little deep) and I started to see myself in a new way.
I wanted to shake, rattle and roll my body. I need to be able to breathe more easily, move more freely, do more without major planning of where and when I need to be somewhere. Oy, there are some difficulties, but really all is well if I build myself a better life and a better way of living.
That's just it, the end result will be something I want because I will have put all of the pieces into place. I can't get there from here without taking all of the steps in between. There is no shortcut to Point B. I will get there when I get there.