This morning started for me at 4am. Not by choice, however. I have such horrible problems with trying to get quality sleep. No matter what time I go to bed, at best, I get 4-5 hours. This wouldn't be a problem if I didn't wake up almost as tired as I was when I went to bed. I am hopeful that this change in my eating habits will also lead to better sleep. By the time 2pm rolls around I am exhausted and almost in dire need of a nap. If I take a nap, then that effects my ability to sleep at night. Its a vicious cycle lol.
My week has been busy, and yet I feel as though I have accomplished very little. I am still looking for a job. Busy doesn't really bother me.... what bothers me most is that I am constantly having to wait on someone else in order for me to move forward. Why does it always feel like something/someone is holding me back?
I have stuck to my plan this week, but I did notice that I am feeling hunger more than I have in the last two weeks. I have no idea what that's all about. I did drop a point in my daily points values....but since I was having problems working in ALL of my daily points, I don't think that's a factor. Maybe just the stress of everything else going on in my life. Sometimes I swear I feel like I am running in circles. And if that seems funny to me, even funnier than that is that even after 52 years of living life, I still fool myself into thinking that somewhere in the near future, I will not have so much stress in my life lol. Maybe life is all about stress..... I'm not sure anymore. I just try my best not to dwell on that and keep humming.....
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high.
There's a land that I heard of once in a lullabye.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, skies are blue.
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.
Someday I'll wish up on a star and wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, away above the chimney tops..
That's where you'll find me.
Somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly, Birds fly over the rainbow..
Why then - oh, why can't I?
If happy little bluebirds fly beyond the rainbow,
Why, oh, why can't I?