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Mirror-Self disconnect?

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

Today has been a little bit of a roller coaster, even though I like the mechanical ones I don't like the mind game ones. I woke up today feeling alot less sore than I was yesterday which made me happy, very happy! so I put on my scrub pants and I felt like (even though they are kind of stretchy) they fit better so I immediately start feeling like the skinny girl I know I am inside.

I felt amazing the majority of the day, I even caught a glimpse of myself in the bathroom mirror at school and thought my arms looked more defined! Now i am super pumped and walking around like I'm a fitness superstar or something which really felt good, like its who I'm MEANT to walk around like and feel. I get to the gym throw on my pink shirt and stretchy pants and hit the eliptical. Yet again i make 40 minues and im even keeping a pace of 175-180 which is just another victory for me!

I am now at an all time high! I am happy and sweaty, which means I must go home and shower. So I get home and i take my sweaty gym clothes off and look in the mirror.... fat. I see the same thing that I would have probably 2 months ago, there goes my all time high...

I am having a very hard time with this mirror and perception disconnect of myself, I feel like I should be avoiding my nude self in mirrors altogether because it just disappoints me. Why do the mirrors in the school bathroom with my scrubs on show me something different than when I'm at home and about to take a shower in my own bathroom? Why does it feel like I've done nothing when I have been doing cardio 7 days a week and eating like a healthy machine?

I know that my body is healthier than it was yesterday, but how come the mirrors make me feel so... unfit and unhealthy?
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    Try using the mirror to see how you've changed. You may not see it in every body part so focus on spcific parts.
    1869 days ago
    Can you put a lamp in your bathroom? seriously... there are some mirrors that I look in that makes me look fat even at my lowest weight, and then there are some mirrors that i just look like a rock star in! If you cant help but look at yourself in the nude in the bathroom and you dont like what you see - change it - changing the lighting will do WONDERS! No lie...

    Also, go back to the good mirrors asap! lol. Hope you have a great end-of-the-week! Stay strong and focused!!
    1870 days ago
    I feel the same way sometimes. But there are areas that I can see the difference when I look in the mirror. And I take lots of measurements, so that shows my progress as well.

    But keep holding your head up high! You are doing fantastic! emoticon

    Thanks for sharing!

    Smile and Enjoy the Rest of Your Day!
    SP Class of January 27- February 2, 2013
    Perfect Health Diet Team
    Calorie Cycling Team
    1870 days ago
  • STHAX10
    Use the mirror as an encouragement tool (to see the areas that you want to work on). As I began gaining weight, I avoided mirrors. Instead of learning from the mirror, I let my insecure feelings cause me to pack on the pounds.

    Now, I look at myself 70 pounds lighter. I see the stretch marks (WAR WOUNDS) and I appreciate them because I overcame the weight. I still have 16 pounds to go, and I am taking a very slow tactic to these pounds because I don't want them back!

    So every insecurity that you face now, will eventually become the past.

    My proudest moments...when people tell me how wonderful I look! You will get that too, and then the mirror reflects what people say.... emoticon
    1871 days ago
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