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341 - feeling better?


Tuesday, February 05, 2013

I'm feeling much better in terms of the cold I've had. I finally feel like I'm getting my energy back and actually made it to 10,000 steps today :/ I've been at about 5k every day for the last week.

I had a complete breakdown at my acupuncturist today. Some days just feel so hopeless: who am I kidding myself? I'm never going to get pregnant. Pigs will fly first. I went to see a new OB today, since my last was an idiot, to be completely frank. This one was nice, but not sure I'll be trusting my fertility to her. I'll be trusting my naturopath and acupuncturist on that front. The OB really urged me to take another 3-6 months to try naturally. She said we can go full-steam-ahead if I'm not pregnant by June. I appreciated that. She said she definitely thinks I can get pregnant naturally, I just need to give it time since I've only been ovulating regularly for 5 months. As far as she's concerned, I need another 7 of trying before there is any need to try anything more invasive. I guess that makes me happy...but no closer to being pregnant! Ugh.

My mom found out today that she is basically diabetic. That scares me, because I think I'm a ticking time bomb for diabetes....overweight, too many carbs, not active enough. Plus, what about gestational diabetes if I do get pregnant? I told her I'd follow a diabetic lifestyle with her, so I have some learning to do.
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CONFUSEDBIRD 2/10/2013 10:05AM

    It's nice to have a hopeful new OB. Maybe if nothing else she will give you a nice new bright outlook to make you feel good. That is really sweet of you to change your lifestyle with your mom. My uncle became diabetic recently due to his weight and he's dropped like 50 lbs so far and is doing really good..

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MORTICIAADDAMS 2/7/2013 6:48PM

    Good job on the steps, GF, and I'm glad you are over the cold!

I know you feel discouraged but I don't think you should be. You ARE going to get pregnant. Relax and keep the stress at bay. Allow yourself to be content and happy.

Envision your ovary releasing an egg where it travels through your fallopian tube while being brushed by the fronds . At some point in this process your shimmering egg encounters the fastest studmo whip-tail sperm she could imagine and, just like that, a star is born. The newly bonded pair forms a cluster and they move on to their new home in your nice plush uterus where they bed down and set up housekeeping. 9 months later you are holding your little bambino.

I worry about diabetes too and it's more reason for me to get on plan and stay there. I'm not sure really why I don't. At least South Beach is a good diet for diabetics.



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PHEBESS 2/6/2013 4:40PM

    Breathe. Deeply. Slow down.

First, listen to the dr. This is her area of expertise. If she says she thinks you can get pregnant in the next six months or so, trust that. Might or might not happen, but all you can do is try.

Second, your mother didn't have gestational diabetes, did she? This happened when she hit middle age. So this doesn't mean you'll necessarily develop gestational diabetes. Does increase your chance of becoming diabetic later in life though, so remember that you can make changes NOW that will affect how you are THEN.

Third - my understanding is that sometimes acupuncture relieves emotional stress, and that you should expect the occasional meltdown - no?

So - relax. You kind of are fighting life right now, and you need to relax and enjoy life NOW. You can't control the future, it will happen in its own time. So enjoy now.

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ALISHAB3 2/6/2013 12:10PM

    You also want to make sure that your partner is getting plenty of iron and magnesium from his food. (according to my Mom, who had me!)

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ZEALIA 2/6/2013 8:03AM

    Getting back to spark, for me,, was all about making my body ready! I know that I've got a lot of work to do before I can even try pregnancy. Keep optimistic, that baby is just waiting till you are ready.
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JCHRELLE_04 2/6/2013 1:47AM

    I haven't tried to get pregnant but I just found out I may have PCOS and the thought of struggling to have children weighs on my mind. I can only imagine the frustration you feel. If your OB thinks it can happen, just keep trying. It will happen! And many prayers for your mom to be able to control her diabetes. You shouldn't stress the risk of developing it too.. Losing the weight will lower your risk. Just keep working at it.
We got this! Here with ya! =)

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ALASKABRED 2/6/2013 12:35AM

    I read your post and understand your angst about getting pregnant when it just doesn't happen. You have probably heard this before but sometimes we put too much expectations on our bodies to perform as we want but some things just take time and acceptance. When I was younger I thought I'd never get pregnant but when I stopped thinking about it, my first son decided to come into this world. Enjoy life in this moment, savoring each day and give yourself some more time. Be gentle with yourself and your emotions because we all tend to place demands on ourselves and then mentally beat ourselves up when we do not attain what we thought we ought to. You are a gorgeous girl with infinite possibilities in your future. I have children that are about your age and the quest to be healthy is a lifetime pursuit. So, sit back and look forward to your future with anticipation, following the path that is best for you. I wish you luck and the happiness you deserve.

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