Tuesday, February 05, 2013
It's been quite a day! In the last journal entry I discussed the possibility of purchasing either a Fitbit or Bodymedia device. As many of you know I have been Sparking for about three years and during that time have reduced my weight from 245 to 175 pounds---when people say that losing the weight is the easy part but keeping it off is the real work they aren¡¦t kidding!
In the last year alone I lived outside the US and spent extended time in ten countries, I discovered I have insulin issues and wheat sensitivity and sometimes ate crazy stuff without knowing what it was (horse?!) which is a common experience for expats. I attended birthday parties, musical recitals, school banquets and Ramadan Iftars. I went face to face with the Russian cookie monster (and obsession with bread is historical) and still maintained that 70 pound loss. I am grateful to have gotten away with it!
But here¡¦s the deal those last 30-40 pounds have got to finally go! While I do not suffer from lack of discipline, proper diet or lack of exercise I must confess the precise caloric needs of my body remain a mystery. I have for too long have had to guess if I was eating too little or too much, working out too little or too much and the scale that refused to move downward for months at a time was indicative of that. Also questionable scales didn¡¦t help. Granted, in the last three months I cut out *all wheat products,* refined sugars and really, really increasing my protein intake have made a huge difference; but that constant guessing was sapping my confidence to keep losing.
That ended yesterday when the Link Bodymedia (aka Bodybugg) arrived. It came with two expensive and worthy friends: an Eat Smart digital body fat, weight and water scale and the comprehensive TURBO FIRE set! To say that I spent a little on my health would be a bit of an understatement¡Kbut 2013 has to be that year the last 40 leave, my health continue to thrive and the goals I have for my next decade start to come to fruition Samza 2.0!
As many of you know I am in a difficult phase at the moment. That horrible mixture of feeling let down/unappreciated, unprofessionally treated by others has forced me (and for this I am grateful) to rethink, re-plan goals and reinforce successes in my life that are present. They have reminded me that while some things might really suck now¡Kif I let my health fail or confidence wean by not taking care of myself then everything will suck. I also believe that by remaining very focused and disciplined in the fitness of my life will pour commitment and discipline into professional and life oriented goals. I cannot stand callousness or laziness in others so won¡¦t accept it in myself.
In the summer I discovered that I freakin love Kickboxing. Sure I enjoy all sorts of exercise but something in kickboxing really, appeals to me I believe it¡¦s that sense of directed power and aggression. I don¡¦t believe I mentioned this before but my Father and his youngest brother¡Kfor all their massive shortcomings and cultural baggage experienced a great deal of success in their youth in boxing; numerous state and national titles, trophies and awards that used to line the shelves of my Grandfather's office in Montana, a huge accomplishment for anyone but in particular Native American men. Maybe it is in my DNA.
All the same I tried turbo Jam and loved it. This year as far as my health is concerned I desire a big challenge, structure, discipline and commitment, Turbo Fire seems to be providing just that. I did my first program workout today and for the first time in a long time I was winded! LOVE IT. I am going to try program diet suggestions but must wait until next week's grocery shopping to do that. I will periodically speak abou Turbo fire for the next couple of months.
Why did I select the Bodymedia over the Fitbit. you will enjoy my reasoning! ...because it seems a hell of lot less likely to get lost and makes me feel more athletic chillin on my arm like that! I have yet to even sync it to Sparkpeople for the first time yet but will also let you know how I find it as time passes.
In a final note for today I just want to thank of all you who have sent and posted encouraging messages about my other life cirumstances¡Kit means a lot especially because so many friends live far away and nobody in my family is supportive. I will update on other stuff shortly.